My synapses are on fire

This happens periodically—-and it’s a good sign when it does—-sensory overload, brought on by the realization of something new, or when I’m in the process of discovering a passion. The mundane calls it mania. I like to visualize it as the synapses in my brain meeting and making love, with an orgasm that expands throughout my being. Babies are being made. My heart picks up, tingling shoots down my arms and into my fingertips, my jaw tickles the way it does sucking on sugar. It’s a feeling of utter aliveness, of being connected with the world. I am in touch with my inner Creator, and it is powerful.

The trick is not to drain all my energy in this process—-to ‘blow my load’, as it were. (and perhaps that’s what would define it as mania.) This feeling demands an outlet, fireworks can’t be shooting off indoors, after all. And when it comes to a release, the more streamlined the better. (for the sake of your comfort I will not continue with the sexual comparisons, though I’m sure you already went there, and besides! creation is creation)

My point is, I’m learning better how to gather this potent energy in a constructive way. As I grow older, I’m excited to remain in touch with this youthful connection to Magic, and couple it with the ability to refine and manifest it into something useful for the world. It’s a beautiful thing, to be alive, and yes, the Truth is corny!

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Design Is... an AIGA Case Study!

http://www.aiga.org/case-study-design-is/

I'm excited to have this project recognized by AIGA. It was more than an enjoyable experience, where I got to meet 8 amazing people and push my interests during a time of professional boredom. It was a catalyst to uncover a new set of paths that are leading me to a beautiful life in creativity and working with others. 

this project kind of changed my life.

ready, set, DELIVER

I've had varying emotions, continuing on with this project. Much of me wanted to stop when I'd finished drawing and filling in the first layer body, feeling that I didn't want to ruin all the satisfying work I'd done. I liked the cool tones, and everything was soft and earthly.

But to stop now would be typical, and defeat the purpose behind the work's meaning. Perhaps I wanted to stop because I literally didn't know how to continue. Should I use paint? Markers? And I think I wanted to stop for another reason. Because I relate to this stage. Where I am still grounding myself, and feel the ghost of something greater, yet it is not the main voice just yet. Wait, wait, just a little while longer while I build myself up, then I'll jump. Don't shoot the gun yet.

Realizing this, I FELT the necessity of continuing, to manifest this persona in every sphere I can---to make time for her, to welcome this guiding energy into my life.

Plus, so far, everything had been done in colored pencil... canvas demands more than pencil. It BEGS for deep saturation. Enter: India Ink

Mainly a fiery red/orange, she has green limbs that soak in grounded energy. Her face and hair have a mix of colors (including silver, it's hard to see in the photo) as all these vitalities drive her action. She is magic, Intuition. It wasn't my intention, but she's become so prominent that she no longer looks like the spirit behind the Thinker -- she is a butterfly shedding her cocoon.

As my first return to drawing, and in a way, a brand new approach to self expression, I am happy and relieved to give birth. I feel accomplished and ready to take on the next step in my life. Bring it on!

ready, set, PROGRESS

I'm determined to finish this today. It feels amazing, to draw again, and so pleasing to see my imagination come to life.

I needed this process today, I think I need it most days.

ready, set, BEGIN

I have a vague idea.
with both of me, preparing for takeoff.
touching the ground for strength, with energy to lift me forward.
something like this...